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<h2 id="工作">工作<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#工作" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
<p>2021 年 3 月 5 日是我拥有第一份很正式的工作,很幸运也很开心呀。一路走过来不容易 ~</p>
<p>当时找到这份工作真得激动的要哭了……离家超级近,仅 10 分钟的路程。而且公司很正规:五天八小时、双休、法定节假日年假、从不加班!</p>
<p>薪资的话平均每个月到手 3500 左右,年末刚谈了绩效🤩,新的一年到手应该是 4000 左右。加班双倍工资可以摸到 4500 的屁股了。正常满勤是 14 薪,上半年请了好多好多的假期,所以今年 13 薪😭。公司管吃管住省了好多好多好多😛</p>
<p>过完假期有很多新项目会上线,应该会忙一阵子,不过平时是真得很划水 ~</p>
<p>唯一的缺点就是没有发展潜力,部门的老同事很多,大家都是一个萝卜一个坑,很少很少裁员,所以就需要熬 si 同事才有晋升机会。😫</p>
<p>新的一年好好工作,努力学习!</p>
<h2 id="爱好">爱好<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#爱好" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
<p>今年新增了两个爱好:摄影和钢琴,摄影是一直都在拍拍拍,钢琴倒是学习的少。不过好喜欢钢琴曲,超级解压!</p>
<p>今年趁周末好好把郑州转转,再学习学习 PR、PS 尝试一下自媒体。</p>
<p>趁年轻多做加法,搞不动了再说!</p>
<h2 id="生活">生活<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#生活" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
<p>感觉跟自己的朋友,特别是结完婚成家立业的朋友似乎是越来越远了……</p>
<p>没有办法呀,人家孩子都多大了,自己还在这挂着嘞……</p>
<p>就感觉大家已经不是在一个圈子里了,而且产生了一次最奇葩的矛盾更颠覆了我的认知……</p>
<p>事情是这样的:</p>
<p>朋友 A 喊我吃饭,朋友 B 去了C 是后来去的。我和 A、B 的关系比较好,然后呢 B 平时经常找我买药我在医药行业工作买药比较实惠。我就聊起来说可以尝试刷社保并买一些小额度的保险这样下来一年也能省不少钱你也不用那么累了。B 说不太懂,我就深入讲了几句。</p>
<p>C 这时候听着感觉不爽,说大过年提这丧气的事情。然后呢,我听出来他的意思了。我也想我表达方式可能有问题,毕竟大家都不想生病。我赔了不是,说没注意场合很抱歉哈。</p>
<p>然后呢C 蹬鼻子上脸,我也没啥说的了,丢下一句话:兄弟实在是佩服。便走了……</p>
<p>事后 A、B 并不觉得 C 很过分,只是说 C 喝了酒别往心里去。我也知道我说话方式可能不妥,大家并接受不了这样的方式。</p>
<p>我的出发点在于 B 是从事体力劳动,无五险一金和商业保险,平时医药支出也大,我作为好朋友想替他省点钱。大家觉得我可能在丧人家的气,然后我就觉得大家好像已经不是一个圈子的人了……</p>
<p>事后我也反思了一下,我说话场合不太合适,但是我出发点没错,不过以后还是尽量少说点……</p>
<h2 id="感情">感情<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#感情" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
<p>客观的来说,我不是在恋爱就是在恋爱的路上……</p>
<p>以前也是好不懂事,总是很喜欢恋爱带来的热闹感,呵护感和安全感。也不知道自己究竟为什么这样,而且每一段感情都很不愉快……</p>
<p>认真的来说,我想结婚、想成家似乎都是因为小时候家里的琐碎带来的阴影,自己也不知道如何正确的处理和消化。企图通过恋爱来修复这块伤痕,所以就超级想成家结婚,似乎结婚就可以解决这所有的问题。</p>
<p>然而呢,并不是这样的,稚嫩的时候无法正确的认知和辨别事务的对错,还带着些许的迷信,偏执,自以为是。</p>
<p>没有领路人没有伯乐,似乎就在这条路上错的越来越远了。</p>
<p>上一次很痛的恋爱后,家里的催婚各个方面又开始了一段新的感情。似乎问题解决了,似乎也在重蹈覆辙。现如今这段感情也到此结束了,今年确确实实成长成熟了很多,由内而外的成长。也能去看清事物本质,结合客观实际去做选择。</p>
<p>现在对我来说,稳定的工作、稳定的生活、稳定的情绪都是非常重要的!而且是及其重要的,虽然还带着些历史包袱。但是质变需要一个过程,最后也会带来一个结果。</p>
<p>去年一年都在努力向前看,今年依旧要努力向前看。</p>
<p>过去的很多事情都无法弥补,有时候也会困扰着我。再次真诚的希望,伤害过我的和我伤害过的人,大家都可以过的很好,越来越好。</p>
<h2 id="父母">父母<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#父母" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
<p>老爸老妈还是那个样子咯,自己需要调整好自己啦。父母也很在乎自己的孩子,只是生活、环境造就成了这个样子。希望自己能更好的处理好家庭、父母的关系!</p>
<h2 id="老姐">老姐<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#老姐" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
<p>在老姐这似乎都是个不懂事的孩子,伴着成长。以后自己多加把劲努力生活,也替老姐愤愤忧!</p>
<h2 id="新年快乐">新年快乐<a aria-hidden="true" tabindex="-1" href="#新年快乐" class="internal"> §</a></h2>
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